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cram session

2011-05-03T15:46:00.002+01:00

Final cram session before my first paper. Somehow, I focus better on the last day. Strange, I know. Maybe I'm just not the kind of person that can sit all day at my desk revising if I have plenty of time before the exam. Probably my subconsciousness just knows I still have time. Then, the procrastination begins.

It's like a process, really. First, I'll study for some time. Then my brain starts to wander away and I'll go online or do something else that's counter-productive. That's the beginning of the procrastination stage. Why? It's all because I'll keep telling myself, another hour and I'll get back to studying but somehow I never do until it's past dinner. Then I'll study a little more and get distracted once again. The next time I look at the clock, it's bedtime and I tell myself I won't do it again the next day. Guess what? Same process starts all over again. Utter fail. *facepalm*

Anywho. Just stopped by today because I just realized something and I've got to document this down. Drumroll, please.

I skipped more classes in third year than I did in both first and second years combined.

In my defence, I'll admit that I was beginning to lose interest in studying.

Right then. Back to the books for me. I have to utilize the very little time I have left efficiently.

Loves.

Thoughts before the final Finals

2011-04-30T01:25:00.001+01:00

May 2011. Finals.

I'm worried and scared to death about it, yet somehow I still can't concentrate and focus on studying. I know that this should be the time when I have to give my all but I feel distracted and unmotivated. This is utterly bad for my aim off getting at least a second upper for my degree. And we all know how much that's going to mean to me if I do get it.

Frankly, I'm disappointed and annoyed with myself for getting distracted. Mainly because the distraction is from YouTube. Worse part of it all? I'm obsessing. Not only about Wong Fu Productions and their work- which is genius and awe-inspiring, might I add- but because of one of the trio from WFP. I'm beginning, no scratch that, I already am idolizing him. In the same way I idolize McFly and Dougie Poynter. As you remember clearly, I was on that fine line of crazy fan girl and creepy stalker.

I've been telling myself for days to forget about this mental infatuation, but to tell you the truth, it's extremely hard to stop. Especially when you think that their creations are just incredibly amazing and when these are the types of things that you truly appreciate from the bottom of your heart (woahhhh, getting kind of deep here). What's more? Watching all their videos are starting to encourage you to start searching for your dream.

So what can I do? Avoid the Internet and my laptop until my exams are over? Impossible to accomplish, seeing I still need my laptop and the Internet to get work done. Work meaning past year papers and research for my spanish film and literature module. So the best idea that I can actually come up with at the moment is to ignore Facebook and YouTube for the time being. It's going to be so damn hard but I've got no choice. Not going on those sites is easier than facing my own disappointment, and since I recently realized that I put the most pressure on myself, it definitely isn't going to be easy to live with me if I fail.

Hmmm. Guess I found something to motivate myself to study. Ooh! Bright idea! What WFP did/is doing is a great motivation for me, so I think I should be able to channel my strange obsession positively by using that energy to focus on studying instead of going all mental and watching their videos one after the other.

Alright. So far, this post has been a little emo and strange. In other news, I'm graduating soon! Not only that, I'm going home on June 4th! Also, I went for a Taylor Swift and McFly concert earlier this month. *big, silly grin*

On a side note, I think some self-improvements are in order. Many things I need to work on. These being my confidence, self-esteem and I do believe, it's time for me to grow up. Not that I'm going to become some boring adult who has no fun. I just think that maybe it's time I stopped looking at everything from a childish point of view and open my eyes to the bigger picture. Now, that's a challenge I'm really looking forward to. 'Course I can only start all this after exams are over, but no worries. I'll have plenty of time before I start working for all of these plans to take place. Oh yeah, baby. Debbie Yap has some big plans for herself. Trust me, it ain't going to be drastic changes. Just upgrades.

Right, then. Wish me luck for everything! Time for bed now. Tomorrow's going to be filled with sitting at my desk studying my brains away. G'night! Loves.

midnight update

2011-01-31T00:57:00.002Z

I should be sleeping since tomorrow's Monday. But, I thought I might as well drop by. Did you miss me? *winks*

Classes have been alright, I guess. I've somehow managed to get through most of my assignments and presentations without much of a hitch. I'm just left with one last group assignment to do before it's all exams, exams and exams. Good luck to me!

Anywho. Chinese New Year is coming soon. February 3rd, if I'm not mistaken, and surprise surprise! My parents and sister will be around. Why, you ask? Since their trip to Egypt was cancelled due to the riots (hope it settles soon, and quick), and they wanted to leave the country, where else could they go? London. They arrive this coming Tuesday evening. Begin cleaning and tidying.

Well, at least it'll be nice to have family around for Chinese New Year.

Also, because I'm really proud of myself for being able to do it, I've been able to stick to one of my new year's resolution so far. Of course, it's one of those promises that're easy to keep. But I might fall off the wagon. So fingers crossed I stick with it.

This past month has been great. I've been feeling happier than I've felt in ages. I'm actually ticking stuff off of my wishlist. And life's been good. Thank you, God. (=

2011 is definitely my year. Loves.

2011

2011-01-05T18:05:00.004Z

Oh, hello forgotten blog. *winks* Happy new year!

Right. I'm too lazy to talk about my new year's resolutions so I'm totally skipping that part.

It's only the first week of the new year and I'm already stressing like mad. Two presentations coming up, Spanish oral, and Spanish grammar and vocabulary exam. Worst of all? I haven't started revising and I've not done anything for my presentations. Dying here!

But the funniest thing is? I feel so worried and nervous to the point of hyperventilating but I'm still taking my time and procrastinating away. As if I've got all the time in the world. Good grief!

Yeah, yeah. I should be doing something about it. And I am! My book's open in front of me right now. I'm just not paying any attention to it. What do you want me to do? I ain't got the mood for studying anymore.

The past few days, all I want to do is go home. But no. Can't go home because I'm stuck here with assignments to do and classes to attend. This sucks.

Oh well. I'm going to go find chocolate then stare at my book hoping I get some inspiration/motivation to finish my work.

Loves.

FML

2010-10-19T16:52:00.002+01:00

Seriously. FML.

I know I really shouldn't be saying that. But I think I should have at least one day when I can curse the entire world and cry my eyes out.

Yeah. And I'm saying today is that day. I'm not going to rant about what's causing me to do this because it's really not that important if you compare it to the whole lot of worse stuff happening all over the world. But yeah. I'm going to be a damn selfish bitch today.

So I'm sorry if I offend anyone. I don't mean to. It's just for today, I promise. And tomorrow, I'll hopefully be back to normal where I won't be emotional and angry and self-pity myself. I won't complain. And I'll just squash everything back into that bottle again. But today, that bottle's got to overflow.

I miss home and my friends who I don't get to meet and talk to often. I miss hanging out with Fiza. I miss being in kindergarten with not a care in the world. I miss feeling extremely happy and the times when I did not have to keep all my negative emotions and thoughts in the back of my mind because I didn't have any.

I don't know what I want to do after third year. I have no idea what I really love doing. I don't know how to answer my parents when they ask me what's troubling me because I have no idea what is troubling me. I have so much emotions bottled up inside me that I can't even remember what they are anymore. But I know those feelings are still there. And it frustrates me to no end because I can't understand it so that I can help myself let go of what caused me to feel that way.

And oh, damn it all. God, why do you always turn my life back upside down when I think I've finally got it back on track? And I pray so hard that you'll give me hints or answers to help me. And I try my hardest to do what I should. Please, please, pleeeassseee help me.

Homesick

2010-10-18T23:40:00.002+01:00

Oh yeah. For once in the three years she's been in London, she's finally admitting that she's bloody homesick.

Effing hell. I've only been back for, like what? Two weeks and I'm missing home already. Okay. So it's not as bad as when I first got here in first year. But feeling homesick in your first year would be normal. And this happened before. Back in fifth form.

Seriously? What is it about final years (excluding A levels) that makes me miss being at home so much?

Whatever. I don't want to think about this right now. I really don't. Right now I just want to go to bed and wake up tomorrow, ready for class and not feeling like crap.

G'night y'all. Loves.

Love!

2010-10-09T00:25:00.001+01:00

And this is one of the reasons why I love them so much. I doubt that you get what I mean. But I don't give a damn. This totally made my day. (=

Fail

2010-09-28T06:08:00.002+01:00

Seriously. I'm a total fail. Why? I so did not revise at all. Not to make any excuses. But after China? Things kept happening. And everything was just messed up. So yeah. Didn't really feel like studying after all that.

4th October. That's when I'll be saying bye to home and hello to my last year in London. Sad, really. Some days I don't want that Monday to come so fast. Some days I want to be on that flight already.

Ugh. This is hard for me to write. This stupid, measly post.

Whatever. I'll try again later. But for now, this is what you get.

beijing

2010-09-01T18:25:00.001+01:00

Well, if it ain't me. Blogging again. Sure don't know why I'm here today. Don't really have anything to say. Except... I'm going to Beijing on the 4th! Whoooooooo. Yeah. Not really excited about the trip. Why? No internet for a whole week. Sighhh. Yeah, yeah. My life revolves around my laptop. I sit in front of it for so many hours everyday, I think even my laptop's sick of me. Or not. Who knows?

So. I've been reading the Harry Potter series again. Only at Prisoner of Azkaban though. Doubt I'll be able to read 'em all before the seventh movie (part 1) comes out. Oh well.

Alright. I'm totally just talking about unimportant things here. What? It's summer hols. Nothing important really happens during summer. Other than the World Cup this year. But it's over already. So congrats to Spain.

Ooh! I interned at dad's kl office again. For a month. 'Twas real cool this time around. Learnt loads of stuff. Now I know the gist of what's going on. And so far... my summer's been a blast. Once I get back from china, I have about 3 weeks to revise spanish and read 3 spanish books. Good luck to future me. That's going to be one heck of a revision period.

Aite, peeps. I'm out. Of to my residence in Dreamland. Send me a letter sometime. Address is 123, Fantasy Street, DEB8135 Dreamland.

Loves.

P.S: I have no idea why this font is in grey while the rest are in pink. Might be because I'm using my phone for this one.

home alone

2010-06-29T20:40:00.002+01:00

Just realized I haven't blogged in a long while. So here I am.

Paris Disneyland was extremely awesome. I loved every minute of every hour of every day that I was there. Wish I can go back there again. And I think I will. (;

Then it was the trip to Gran Canaria with my sister and her friends. That was fun too. Sure it was a little weird. But who cares, right? I was at the beach. I was having fun. I mean, I saw dolphins for crying out loud!

But I've been home for one and a half weeks now. A little boring. But I've been watching anime and movies and tv series. Not to mention the World Cup. Pity England's out so early. But oh well. At least there's still Germany and Spain. Speaking of Spain, they're playing against Portugal right now. And the score is still nil all and it's the second half. Sigh.

Alright, back to watching football. Fingers crossed, Spain wins. Loves.

i miss you

2010-06-03T16:33:00.003+01:00

So I admit it. Maybe I do. Just a tad. But it's not like it matters, does it? You're not going to care. Just like how I'm never going to tell you that.

I keep telling myself it's not worth it and I should just keep on walking forward and not look back. But some idiotic part of me just won't let go. I don't know what you did. But you did something. I was not the mushy, teary and emotional kinda girl back then. But then you came along and changed it all. Thanks a bunch. My world's all messed up now. But guess what? I still think you're the biggest idiot in the entire world because of what you did. But like I said. That doesn't change anything, does it?

I don't know anything anymore. I feel so pissed off and upset at the same time. I hate you but I miss you. How sick is that? And do you want to know what the weird thing is? I want to give up so badly but I never can.

So really. Thanks ever so much. Why? Because I'm just so clueless when it comes to you.

free at last!

2010-05-10T21:55:00.003+01:00

So. I've finished my last exam paper today. Feeling so happy that I can burst out singing. But I won't.

Freakily enough, today I've been extremely dumb/blur. Can you believe I thought a pull door was a push door? And it took me a few minutes to figure it out. So I was just standing in front of the door like an idiot. But at least I wasn't being dumb/blur when I was doing my essays.

Anywho. I'm extremely giddy about the fact that I can now read all the manga, play all the games and watch all the anime, movies and tv series that I want! Not to mention books. I can read all the books I want. Heck, I can do whatever I want now without having to worry about studying or exams. Yayness! Life is good! (=

That's the newest update for now. I'll probably take forever to update again since I'll be engrossed with doing everything that I can do. And for all those who have exams still... GOOD LUCK!!! Loves.

back in jolly ol' England

2010-04-25T19:20:00.002+01:00

No thanks at all to the Eyjafjallajokull volcano in Iceland, I arrived back in London last Wednesday night. Sat for my Spanish paper on Thursday morning. I think I was sort of crazy for doing that. But what can I do? When life gives me lemons, I might as well make lemonade. *laughs* I think I'm being rather philosophical today.

Still jet lagged. I get so sleepy by 10pm and it's so weird that I wake up at 8am these few days. But I think it's somewhat cool. Why? Because in the early morning, it's so quiet and calming. I know it's the same as in the wee hours of the morning, when I've not gone to bed. But it's somewhat different too, because at 7-ish/8-ish in the morning, it's bright and sunny (unless it's raining) and well, I get that nice, happy feeling. And if it's 4/5am, I'm sleepy and grumpy. There's a big difference there. New thought: I think i'll continue this routine. It's fun. And I don't get dark rings under my eyes. (=

So, I've been distracted today again. Done nothing but look at all sorts of stuff online and buy songs/albums from iTunes. What a way to spend a day. Really should learn not to procrastinate. I have a whole pile of clothes waiting for me to iron them and I keep putting it off. Well, at least I've finished getting my laundry washed. And to quote London Tipton from The Suite Life of Zack and Cody/The Suite Life on Deck, "Go me!".

Right now, I'm putting off studying again. As usual. Listening to the songs I just bought. Teddy Geiger's songs are quite nice. Don't know why I never bothered to listen to them when they first came out. Just like me to be so slow when it comes to artists.

Alright! Dinner is served. I'm off. Take care! And remember, everyday is a fairytale. (; Loves.

don't forget

2010-04-09T09:25:00.003+01:00

I don't know why, but when I was listening to Demi Lovato songs and this song reminded me of something. The lyrics are damn nice too. Read it. I think it's really sweet.

Don't Forget

Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?

Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it

So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ever holding my hand?
Never again, please don't forget, don't forget

We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it at all

And at last all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, please don't forget us

Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song but you won't sing along
You've forgotten about us

Don't forget

Easter

2010-04-04T12:58:00.002+01:00

Happy Easter! (=

Just got back from KL yesterday. Didn't do anything but read manga the whole day. But tomorrow I have to start studying and doing my assignment.

I lost my voice on Friday night. Sounded like a teenage boy with a breaking voice. Voice range is so limited. Sigh. I hate having this kind of sore throat. And I'm always so lazy to gargle salt water to help the healing. Oh well.

I don't really have much to write about. Nothing much has been happening. So I think I'll continue reading manga. Now that is much more interesting. Not to mention funny. *grins*

See you on the dark side! Loves. (=

going home

2010-03-30T15:58:00.003+01:00

Yay! I'm flying home today!

Michele just left to go back to Manchester. So I'm alone in the house. With Frank. Aina and Nurul left for Italy this morning. Didn't get to see them off (I was sleeping). Oh well.

It's raining.

I should get on with my last minute stuff. Soon.

Yesterday I had my Spanish oral. I kinda messed it up a little bit but I think I did sort of okay. I hope. Fingers crossed. Now it's just the written exam left in April. Have to study during Easter break.

Okay. That's all I can think of right now. So I'll see you when I reach Malaysia!

Loves. (=

i give up

2010-03-28T16:40:00.004+01:00

I feel like crying so badly. I feel like the worst student in the entire world right now. I can't concentrate on studying and my exam is tomorrow. It's okay if the exam is in a language I've been speaking my whole life. But this? It's in a language that I've only studied for close to two years. And it's an oral exam. 20 questions left to prepare. But I can't focus and I can't think. I'll never be able to do this properly. I feel like giving up so bad and curling under my duvet and crying.

But I won't because I can't.

It's almost 5pm and my exam is at 10.40am tomorrow. Wish me luck?

Loves.

P.S: Can I have a dragon? This one in particular.

Home

2010-03-24T19:25:00.002Z

Yayness! Flying home next Tuesday night. Can't wait!

Unfortunately, I can't be too excited yet. I still have tests coming up. One on Friday and another on Monday. Sighh. Not to mention I have to do two essay plans for HRM just to get the 10% for participation in class for my final grade. Ugh. Wondering if it's worth it. Still, that 10% might help me pass the module.

I can't concentrate on studying. Annoying. I keep getting distracted and looking at other stuff online. And I have to use my laptop to study. Ugh. I hate this. I feel stoopid as it is already. How am I going to do well in those tests if I can't focus at all?

Gah! I'm tired. DInner's ready. And after eating I'm going to take a shower and studying until it's time for bed. Must stop procrastinating. Loves.

sport relief 2010

2010-03-21T23:47:00.002Z

Had good fun today. Did the Sport Relief 2010 Charity Run. 3 miles!

Good thing about today. Extremely fine weather the whole day. Yay! I ran 1 mile plus non-stop. Then my lungs couldn't take it anymore. I had to walk. So yeah. Once I stopped running, I couldn't just continue running non-stop again. I think I stopped about 3 times in the whole run. And I managed to sort of sprint the last bit to the finish line. All this without training. I think it's been a good achievement. Made me realize how much I miss doing sports and running. Felt really good after the run though. Muscles aching a little. I think it'll ache really badly tomorrow. Or it might not. All the walking up the hill from Hendon Central to uni might pay off after all. Hahaha!

I think I might take up jogging again. There's good weather now and I've got some free time on my hands. When I go home for Easter, I'm going to continue it too. I really miss all the sports sessions in KTJ and all the running on campus.

Spanish listening exam tomorrow. Not really confident about it but I'm going to try my best. I know it's not really going to be good so I'll make up for it with the oral and the written one. And during the summer I absolutely have to practice my Spanish. Jose's going to be recommending a plan tomorrow I hope. So I think I'm going to try it out. Or I'll just watch Spanish videos on Youtube. Might help.

I know Spanish 3 is going to be extremely hard. Even worse if I don't keep practicing during the summer. Especially since I'm not going to Latin America or Spain for the one year exchange programme. Means I have to work extra extra hard to catch up. Those students who went there last year are going to be coming back as experts in a sort of way. If I want to be as good as them, I'm going to have to work hard during the summer. Might as well do it while I'm here until July too.

Hmm. I have to stop now. Need to get enough sleep so I'll be able to wake up tomorrow and go for Spanish class. Can't miss the exam now, can I? Wish me luck! Loves.

it's finally over!

2010-03-16T19:19:00.003Z

Oh yay! It's finally over. Had the HRM debate today. I was freaking nervous before it. Public speaking is so not my thing. At least, my tutor said we did very well. That's good. Hopefully the marks will be good then. So now, my weekend has begun. No classes until Monday next week.

Spanish listening exam then though. So must study and prepare. Have to finish writing the two essays this week too. Need to hand it in so I can get some feedback next week. Sigh. Spanish is scary. Don't know if I'll be able to pass it. I totally suck at listening. Should listen to spanish stuff more I guess. Oh well. Maybe I'll be able to pass this module. Making up for my sucky listening for my brilliant grammar. Hahaha. Hopefully my grammar is brilliant.

Okay. That's it for now. Celebrating by watching Merlin now and Vampire Diaries later. Loves.

debate

2010-03-14T12:12:00.002Z

A question.

How do you write an opening argument?

Need to get that done by 7pm today. Online group meeting again. Hmm. Maybe I'll go YouTube debates. Might get some ideas on how to write that.

Taa! Loves.

wth?

2010-03-13T18:27:00.002Z

Great. Today's been spent waiting for my group members. What a lame day. We'd plan to do an online group meetin via Skype. But we've just been waiting around for each of us to come online. And one group member isn't even contacting us at all. How lame. The bad thing? Our debate's on TUESDAY!

At least I've been able to prepare my argument. Written it up on flashcards so it'll be easy to hold and read. (= Now hopefully, the other two group mates will be back on Skype at 7pm. Can't do anything about the last group member. She's totally out of reach. Doesn't reply emails, doesn't reply texts. AN-NOY-I-N-G!

They better be online later. I have to do my Spanish essays too. Twerps.

Uni work aside, I can't believe I'm watching Mighty Morphin' Power Rangers. Hahaha. The last time I watched that I was, what? Five years old, I think. Aah, the memories of childhood. How fun!

Go, go Power Rangers!

sigh.

2010-03-10T23:48:00.003Z

I really should be sleeping now. I'm having a sore throat and cough and I have to wake up early tomorrow for class. Sigh. But I can't help it. I was skimming through my past blogs and I find it quite funny. All those stuff I've been through over these two years. TWO years! It's been long. Aaah. A levels. House sports. Prom. First year. Nice looking back. But I've learnt from mistakes that I shouldn't hold on to the past. It's fun to remember but I should always let it go in the end.

Oh this is funny. I'm emo-ing and it's close to midnight. Really should quit this now. Unfortunately for you, dear people, I will blog some more. (;

Why, you ask? Weelll, only to torture you of course. Since you ain't got nothing better to do. Hah! Just kidding, my little minions. I'm just doing this, you know, trying to improve my writing and all. *cough*stupid writer's block*cough*

Just a sidenote, Gossip Girl's back on ITV2. The bad thing about that? I get stuck in front of the tv an hour longer on Wednesdays.

Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland is out. I haven't gone to watch it yet and I can't wait. But I don't know when I'm going to have the time. Maybe next week after my HRM debate? Yeah. That should be a good time, right?

I've read the Percy Jackson and The Olympians series. One word, y'all: A-MA-ZING! Wish I was a half-blood. Well, not really. The notion of having to battle monsters all the time is kinda annoying. I mean, c'mon. Monsters popping up just because I'm on my cell phone? Ugh, much? So, I'd rather just be able to see through the Mist. That'll be fun-er. Them monsters won't annoy me and I can help half-bloods escape from them! And I'll get to meet the Gods! Apollo, Artemis, Poseidon, Athena, Hermes. Okay. Imagination running away from me now.

Alright. You may all now sigh in relief. Off to bed it is for me because I want to dream of meeting the Gods. That'll be an interesting day if it came true. No doubt about that. So my minions, scuttle of to bed or whatever it is you wish to do. And I bid you all a very good night. Loves. (=

greenwich

2010-03-07T22:56:00.004Z

Hey y'all!

Saturday was spent in Greenwich. Interesting day trip we took. Went to the Royal Observatory and the Queen's House. And Greenwich Market too. Unfortunately, I have no pictures. My camera's memory card is full from taking videos and pictures at Lady Gaga's concert. I haven't uploaded it onto my laptop yet.

Anywho. It's already March. The last two weeks of this month, I have Spanish listening exam and Spanish oral exam. Sighh. Next week, I have my HRM debate and on the 26th I have my management MCQ test. But at least by the end of this month, I'll be free from all my classes. And I'm going home for Easter break.

I don't have anymore management classes. Friday was my last class. These two weeks are for us to study for the MCQ test. Then, I've finished that module. Oh shoots. That reminds me. I have to choose which subjects I want to do for third year. International Marketing or International Business Strategy. Spanish film and literature or Spanish politics and media issues. Sighh. I don't know what I want to do! Maybe I should talk to someone about that.

I should sleep soon. I have this horrible horrible sore throat and cough. And I have to wake up at 6-ish tomorrow. Oh, how I hate Mondays. Plus, there's lots of HRM research I have to do for my debate tomorrow. About India or any other country with regards to the ILO. Ugh. Assessments are annoying.

Alright then. G'night y'all. Loves.

P.S: I do believe that it might be time for me to get a new layout. (;

nyah

2010-02-24T01:47:00.002Z

I'd like to say that I'm a very sucky title maker. So there.

It's bloody 2am and I'm still awake. Thank the gods I have no classes tomorrow. But I had planned on sleeping early tonight. Oh well. As usual my plans always fail.

Time's running out for me to finish up my assignment. Starting to stress over it again, which doesn't help much because the more I stress the less willing I am to actually do the work. Sigh. On top of that, I'm feeling down these past few days. It's so freaking annoying but I can't snap myself out of that stupid feeling. I will try, though. To block it out just for these few days. Really need to get this stinking coursework done. Then I can be depressed until whenever.

Just so you know, Percy Jackson and The Olympians by Rick Riordan is freaking awesome. Love the books. Can't wait to watch the movie, which is in cinemas already but I have no time to watch it.

Okie dokes. I'm off to bed. Definitely need to get some sleep. Can't concentrate on reading Prudential CR reports anyway. So g'night y'all. Loves.

tomato red

2010-02-20T02:36:00.002Z

Last night was great. I had dinner with my cousin, Li Yun and my sister. Cousin's in London doing an exchange programme for her MBA from the US. Michele just came down because she wanted to get stuff from me.

Anywho. It was awesome just spending time with them and talking. After dinner we went to a bar. And there my family genes took over. I drank half a glass of mojito and I turned red all over. Stupid fair skin. It was funny, though.

Mic came down just for the night. She left this morning for Manchester. It was nice talking to her about random stuff.

So today, as usual I procrastinated. Ended up playing band hero a lot. The reason why I'm still up is because I was playing band hero until like a quarter past 2am. I'm being a extremely bad student. I really should finish up my assignment and my new Spanish essay. It's all supposed to be handed in this coming week. Sigh.

Okay then. I have a lot of things to do tomorrow. Must finish up all my work and there's house cleaning to do. My turn this week. G'night y'all! Loves.

Happy Chinese New Year

2010-02-14T23:26:00.002Z

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

The first day is almost over but whatever.

Oh, and Happy Valentine's Day too!

It's been a great day. Doing nothing. Skyping with the family in Malaysia. I miss having these CNY reunion dinners. Sigh. Oh well.

Watched two movies tonight. The Time Traveller's Wife and The Ugly Truth. It's for the V-day spirit. (;

Okay. Must sleep soon. Early class tomorrow. I hate Mondays. Don't really feel like going to class. But I have to. Taa! Loves.

100th post

2010-02-10T01:03:00.002Z

Wow. My 100th post. Amazing, isn't it? Never thought I'd actually write this much. But here I am 100 posts later. Really, now. This post should be filled with interesting stuff. Unfortunately, my life isn't that interesting and somehow I can never find interesting things to talk/write about. Must be because I'm either a very boring person or I just can't think of anything to write about. I'd go for the latter. I don't really believe I'm that boring a person. Or am I?

Anywho. I don't really want to talk about my day. But I will mention that Vampire Diaries is freaking awesome. And also America's Next Top Model is in it's 13th cycle and Tyra's looking for America's Next Top Petite Model. Is it cool or what?

This week seems dull. I'm so not in the mood to do my assignment at the moment. Why? I'm sleepy and tired and I feel extremely emo. Not a good sign if you ask me. I just feel like eating chocolate. Ugh. Definitely working out tomorrow. Must get this feeling out of my system. It's unhealthy and not cool at all.

I wish I was home. I wish V day isn't this Sunday. I wish I didn't have all this work load. So many things I'm wishing for. None of them is reality. On the bright side, we're having a Chinese New Year dinner this Saturday. Nothing fancy or big. Just a normal dinner. Then Sunday will be spent watching movies at home. And Monday? Back to classes for me. Sigh. Oh well. This is how life is. Might as well spend it having fun. So, I'm going to stay strong and be happy.

It's past 1am now. Off to bed. Dreamland awaits. The morning will be a brand new day and I want to be extremely productive tomorrow. I will definitely make some headway in my assignment. I don't care how I'm going to do it but I just will.

Good night, world. Loves.

reading week, babeh!

2010-02-08T13:52:00.003Z

Oh yippee yayness! Reading week has begun! And it's so freaking cold outside! It's sleeting again. Ugh. Wish it'll stay warmer longer than a week.

So today I just got another Spanish essay to write. Sigh. At least I have 2 weeks maximum to finish it.

I know I should start on my individual assignment for management already, but I feel extremely tired and lazy. Thus, let the procrastination begin. =P I'll try to begin tonight. Latest tomorrow.

Going to Nurul's bongos performance on Wednesday night.

Chinese New Year this Sunday. I can't wait!

Nurul's birthday is today! Happy 21st!

I don't really have anything else to say other than my newest obsession is online shopping and it's extremely bad. I think I'll take a nap now. Taa! Loves.

February

2010-02-04T01:39:00.006Z

Hey y'all!

How's it going? Haha.

I'm getting some headway in my assignments. Finally! Yeah. I'm being productive at last. Just have half of my part of the group work left for me to do. And I'll be sure to finish it up tomorrow. It's funny how I can concentrate better at weird hours and strangely enough it's always in the early early mornings. Which means I should start sleeping early and wake up at those hours instead of staying awake until 6am and sleeping till 2pm. I must stop being nocturnal.

I can't wait for Princess and the Frog to come out in cinemas this weekend. I'm just not sure if I'll be able to watch it. Hopefully I will. Fingers crossed!

Listening to Justin Bieber's acoustic version of Baby on youtube. It's awesome. Can't wait for his album My World 2.0 to come out. I'm so getting it. (;

Aite, y'all. It's a quarter to 2am now. I'm off to bed. Loves.

aarghh!

2010-01-18T21:31:00.005Z

Bloody hell! Why in the world does my lecturers intend to pile loads of work on us just right after term starts? WHY?! I'm getting so confused! So much research to do, so much to read, so much to study. Good grief! It's times like these that I feel like quitting. Ugh!

I can't wait for easter hols to come now so I can go home. And I've just been back in the UK for two, maybe three weeks. See what uni does to someone?

Anyways, on a lighter note, I have discovered a new pop star to obsess over. XD Okay, I'm just kidding. Not going to obsess. Takes too much time up. Just that Justin Bieber is extremely awesome. Love his album.

I'm still impatiently waiting for Princess and The Frog to open in cinemas in February. Not to mention Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland coming soon in March. Honestly, this year, there're plenty of movies I want to watch. At the moment, I can't. So I'm gonna have to resist temptation and watch all the past movies I've missed online until I hand in all my bloody assignments. And that will be close to the end of February.

Lady Gaga concert on Feb 26th. (;

Okay, kiddies. I'm sleepy and tired. It's still early but I'm going to bed soon. Early day tomorrow with plenty of things to do. Taa! Loves.

Just so you know. Pamela Pillai, Hafizah Adlia. I miss you guys! <3

thoughts

2010-01-13T17:33:00.002Z

So I've finally thought up my new year's resolution. Took me a while really and it's kinda late but who cares? Here goes:

1. Be happy (that should be everyone's number one new year's resolution. happiness is everything, really. in my opinion, of course)

2. Do my best for my studies

3. Let the past go (which is really hard, i think, but i'm gonna try)

4. Stop procrastinating so much

5. Believe that everything actually happens for a reason

That's it, I guess. Don't think there's anything more important than those 5 things on my list right now.

Alrighty, then. I've got to go and do something productive now. Taa! Loves.

Happy New Year 2010!

2010-01-02T13:04:00.002Z

Well, if it isn't already 2010. Amazing how time flies.

So Christmas was awesome. Had dinner with family on Mom's side on Christmas Eve and Christmas day itself. Great time. A little bit crazy but fun. Can't believe my younger cousins are so big already. Slightly jet lagged at that time though.

Anywho, new year was celebrated at home. Nothing special. Just watched the countdown on Singapore TV. Fell asleep halfway through their 8 minute fireworks. But what I saw was still pretty.

I've actually nothing much to say really. After coming back from KL I've just been relaxing at home. And catching up on all my lost sleep. Then I've been trying to finish up my law assignment these past few days. Ugh. Still have about two thirds left of part 2 before I'm done and Mom's given me a deadline. I have to finish it by tomorrow so that I can get other stuff done before Thursday. So good luck to me.

I will stop here. For today. Have to continue on with my work. Happy New Year! Taa for now! Loves.

countdown, babeh!

2009-12-15T01:24:00.002Z

I have achieved freedom! Well, only partial freedom. I have my last two classes on Friday before Christmas break begins. I can't wait. I'm going christmas shopping tomorrow. Don't know if i'll be able to get everything I need to get, but i'll try. Heheh. I should sleep soon. Been sleep deprived for the past few days. Piece of advice- sleeping at 5am two nights in a row and sleeping at 3am the next night will make you go crazy. Another piece of advice- don't do it on the days leading to your exam. Unless you really really have to of course.

Man, I need my sleep. But I still feel awake. So here I am. *laughs*

I've been procrastinating tidying up my room again. So it's not been vacuumed in weeks. Sigh. Laundry's been piling up too. I blame it all on exams.

Anywho. Been reading the new Stephenie Meyer book. It's actually quite intriguing. Haven't had a lot of time to read it much though and I'd like to finish it before I go home. Speaking of going home, 6 days left before I fly back to Msia. Ooh, I can't wait. No need to cook or wash up. No need to clean or do laundry. No need to clean the house. Yeah, I'm that lazy. But I still have to clean my room. No difference there. Ooh! I can do more driving when I go back too. I'll be mom's designated driver again. =P

Oh, Christmas. Wish I had a longer break. Only have 3 weeks. Not staying home long enough. But it'll have to do. Assignments to finish without distractions. Proper food. Probably going to be forced into doing exercise too which is better compared to my discipline for doing exercise here. KL trips. And possibly a Christmas party. I just can't wait. Pity, though. I might miss a white christmas in London. Oh, well. Going home's a good enough reason to miss it.

Alrighty then! That's it for now and I'm off to bed. Night, y'all! Loves.

i hate this

2009-12-12T02:52:00.002Z

This is freaking annoying. It's 5 minutes to 3am. I'm still awake but I've done nothing productive. And on Monday I have Spanish and HRM exams. I am absolutely not prepared. I have no idea how I'm going to be able to study both subjects during this weekend and clean up the house and do other things as well. I just feel like giving up already. I can't seem to focus on my school work. If I can't focus, I can't study. If I can't study, I'm totally screwed.

Ugh! I hate this. Hate it so much. It's either I work like crazy these few days or I just fail terribly on Monday. I have a choice to make and I have to multi-task like mad if I wanna pass. Guess that's my option then. Be a crazy, rushing train. Hopefully I just don't crash and burn later. No more Monopoly until Monday night now. Just X Factor at night on Saturday and Sunday and that's it. I can't afford to waste time watching anime anymore too. Just for these few days. After Monday, I can do absolutely everything I want. Yeah. I'll work extremely hard till Monday.

Good luck to me. I'm going to make tea to drink. Need some brain stimulation power! Loves.

stress

2009-11-28T19:00:00.002Z

Omg! Monday's coming. So soon! I'm so lost now. I can't seem to remember all the vocabulary for Spanish. It's annoying. I feel like screaming. I feel like I just want to stop studying. I feel so bloody stressed out. So many things to do. So many things to read. So many assignments to finish. Why the hell am I so disorganized?

I hate this. I really feel like quitting now. Like I just wanna give up and go home.

new moon

2009-11-25T16:44:00.003Z

Yay! Going to watch New Moon tonight. Hopefully there'll be tickets available. Can't wait. =)

Spanish tests starts next Monday. Don't know if I can remember all the vocabulary by then. I've only managed one page of verbs so far. Plenty more pages to go. I'm so dead. And I have so many other assignments to do. And HRM test to study for. Omg. I have to get it all done soon.

Okay. Have to finish reading one chapter before going out. Loves.

BSB concert!

2009-11-03T22:22:00.002Z

Tomorrow I'm going to Manchester. Why? Because it's reading week and also because I'm going to BSB concert tomorrow night. I'm so excited! I can't wait. Sad that Kevin won't be there. Oh well. At least there's the rest.

Okay. Have to pack and study. That's it for now. Loves.

Fame

2009-10-07T11:05:00.002+01:00

The new movie Fame is so good. I so wouldn't mind watching it again. The songs are awesome. I can't wait to get wireless now so I can get the whole soundtrack from itunes. And well, I have to get my Spanish podcasts as well.

I've been waiting for the Sky people to come install the box. And the sky talk people texted me to say my order cannot be processed. When I call them I'm put on hold and all I hear are those advertisements. It's so bloody annoying.

Oh. House warming party in 2 weeks. And possibly getting kittens this week. No idea.

I have to call the sky talk service again. Ugh. Hope they pick up this time. Annoying gits.

Hello London!

2009-09-29T22:31:00.002+01:00

Classes has begun. My timetable has problems. I'm still on medication. The pitas are annoying. I really need to sort out my timetable but my lecturers aren't replying me. Ugh. I might just have to go to Trent Park for my Spanish. Sighhh. The travelcard will be more expensive then. I'm so tired. I think I'm going to sleep early today. Have loads of things to do tomorrow. So many things left to do because I was in the hospital for 4 days.

Alright then. Good night y'all! Loves.

it's august

2009-08-19T09:14:00.003+01:00

If time was still the sun would never, never find us
We could light up the sky tonight

One month left. Sigh. I'm so bored. There's nothing to do online. And I have no idea what to write here. So technically, I'm just crapping.

I have a whole pile of books to read and I'm only through half of one. Why the hell am I taking so bloody long? Maybe I should stop watching so much tv. I haven't even listened to my iPod in ages.

This is the lamest post in the entire world and I don't really care. I don't even know why I don't care. *laughs*

I have the Hundred Acre Woods theme song stuck in my head. Now I feel like playing PS2.

Okay. I think I shall stop being extra lame and read my book. Loves.

I would see the world through your eyes
And leave it all behind

TGIF

2009-07-24T04:06:00.003+01:00

Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you and the band
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand

Oh yeah babeh. It's Friday. I'll be able to wake up late tomorrow. Wo0t!

Can't let the music stop
Can't let this feeling end
'Cause if I do, it'll all be over
I'll never see you again

Might watch HP6 again tomorrow. *grins* Going out on Sunday to MidValley. Then it's back to work again on Monday. Oh well. At least the weekend will be fun. Hopefully. Loves.

Can't let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
'Cause if I do, it'll all be over
I'll never get the chance again

doubts

2009-06-30T14:31:00.004+01:00

Maybe you were just afraid

Knowing you were miles away
From the place where you needed to be

And that's right here with me

Ahhh. I'm being so bloody annoying. Why do I keep doubting myself, my feelings, my decisions, my thoughts? What the bloody hell is wrong with me?

If it's you for me forever

If it's you and me right now
I'll be alright, be alright

We're chasing stars to lose our shadow
Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine

So won't you fly, fly, fly with me?

procrastinate, much?

2009-06-10T02:22:00.002+01:00

Omg. I've been procrastinating so much these few days. It's already wednesday and I haven't started packing.

Bought The Sims 3 the other day. Been playing it to procrastinate more. Sighhh.

There's no internet tomorrow from 9am to noon. I better use that time to do stuff. I have a feeling I'm bringing home a lot of stuff.

I have nothing else important to say. Except that I'm rather sleep deprived. But that's nothing new, really. I'm always not getting enough sleep. And it's almost 3am now. I guess I should catch some zzz's.

Ugh. I'm such a loser sometimes.

moving...

2009-06-06T00:08:00.002+01:00

It's terrifying how fast time passes by so fast. I mean, I can still remember getting my results for A Levels last August and now I've finished first year. Tomorrow (well later this morning since it's already past midnight) we'll be moving into 3A Cottesloe Mews. Man, I'm so excited. I have 6 boxes of stuff and that's a lot. I hope it'll fit into the taxi. Don't really know how I'm going to carry 6 boxes down 3 flights of stairs and wait for the taxi. Maybe I'll get the taxi driver to park inside the parking lot.

Omg. I really have no idea what to feel right now. I'm going home next week.

Ugh. I'm extremely sleep deprived. Had only about 2 and a half or 3 hours of sleep. I might not sleep much tonight too since I have to wake up early and if I sleep I might not be able to get up til eleven or twelve. And we have to be at the place at ten. Shoot.

I've been procrastinating so much lately. Haven't bought the stuff that I'm supposed to buy from HMV and Boots. Man, I'm such a lazy ass.

That's it. I give up on this packing thing. I'll deal with it tomorrow. I'm going to take a nice warm shower and sleeping. Hopefully I'll be able to wake up on time tomorrow. Loves.

oh, joy!

2009-05-25T20:15:00.002+01:00

I know I'm a couple of days late and I'm not going to bother giving any excuses. But the good news is that we've found a house at last! To say I'm ecstatic would be a mild exaggeration. Not because I'm not happy, I really am. I think the reality of it hasn't been processed throughly just yet.

But it's good to know that the house, the first one we viewed is actually one in a good location-sort of- and it didn't give off any weird vibes. Sure it needs hell a lot of work and decorating before it's actually going to have that homey look to it but it's still a house. 3 double bedrooms, 2 bathrooms and 3 toilets. Wouldn't you say it's complete? Not to mention a garage. I'm hoping that we'll be allowed to change the bed in the smallest room to a single bed so there'll be more space in the room for a desk and what-not. Crossing my fingers for a rather sporting and lenient landlord/landlady.

So now the house-hunting has been completed and there's a possibility of us moving in early June, I've booked my return flight for earlier. It can't be confirmed yet but hopefully by the end of this week I can confirm it. I can't wait to go home. So many things I want to do.

Anywho. That's all I have for now. I think. May be quite long before I'm back again. Or not. I'm off to do... well... something. Loves.

i kissed a girl

2009-05-19T21:43:00.002+01:00

And this is why I love them so much. They're just plain awesome. *grins*

day 13

2009-05-05T05:23:00.003+01:00

13 days of freedom. I'm totally surviving my holiday so far. *laughs* I haven't gotten bored much yet so it's all good.

I've been awake for 14 hours so ignore me if I start crapping or rambling. Half an hour more and I'm going down and stuffing my clothes in the washing machine. Hopefully no one else is crazy enough to be washing their clothes at 6 in the morning.

So I've planned out my day because I don't plan my days when I'm on vacation so I thought I'd do something different. And by doing something different, I'll really be doing something different if I stick to that plan since I can never follow anything I plan properly. Must be my lack of time management skills or my great talent in procrastinating.

Anywho. I might end up sleeping halfway through my plan. Who knows? Just have to see how long I last without sleeping. That'll be fun. So far, my personal best is 18 hours. At this rate I might be able to beat my own record. This is so cool!

I have no idea why I'm saying all this here. But who cares? Not like anyone really reads my blog anyways. *snickers* It's like me updating just tells the world that I'm still alive.

Okay. I'm running out of things to write. And my short attention span is kicking in thanks to the lack of sleep. I wonder if I can sleep for 24 hours. Hmmm. I can try. Maybe I'll try it this afternoon. And if I do try it, today's plan goes down the toilet. Not like there's much of a plan anyways.

Alright-y. 25 minutes left. Maybe I'll go throw rubbish. Yeap. That's a good idea. Must stay awake. Ciao! Loves.

summer's begun!

2009-04-27T04:06:00.002+01:00

I know this is delayed. *laughs* But whatever! I'm on holiday! w00t! The paper was okay. Only thing I'm not that happy about is that I didn't write enough for the econs part. But oh well. What's done is done. I did the best that I could.

Anywho. The house hunting has begun. Horrible, I tell you. It's so bloody hard to find a suitable place because it's still early apparently to find a place when we're only going to move in in September. *sighs* Hopefully we'll be able to get a place before June. Fingers crossed.

It's 4am and I'm still awake. This sucks. I'm becoming nocturnal and I'm in big big trouble if this continues. Bloody hell. What do I have to do to have normal sleeping hours?

I miss my guitar.

I can't wait to go home.

I'm having a hard time with thinking of what to do everyday.

I'm just randomly writing.

I am way, way overbudget this month.

I think words in italics looks cool.

I just nearly burnt my tongue by drinking hot water that's almost sorta cooled down a bit.

I have no idea what I'm writing.

Random people are cool. They keep you on your toes.

Why is there such a saying, "keep you on your toes"? It's a weird saying.

I should try to sleep.

Right. Good night. Or should it be good morning? Whatever. You get the point.

home, babeh!

2009-04-11T16:35:00.002+01:00

I'm homeeeeee! No matter how much I love Spain, I still like coming home. It's that warm, fuzzy feeling you get when you step through your door and sigh, thinking... 'Home at last'. It's such a nice feeling. *smiles*

Pam: Thanks for the letter and the bracelet too. Was a really great and nice surprise to find your letter in my mailbox today when I got back all tired and ready to just get my clothes washed, shower and sleep. Yeah, I'm being bad and planning to skip dinner. Hehe. I'll send a reply soon. I hope. But don't worry. I will send a letter to you.

As much as I would so like to procrastinate some more, I really have to get my clothes washed now. I've got to continue studying for my ECS1300 paper in two weeks. I'm so not prepared. *sighs* So that's all for now folks.

procrastinating

2009-03-20T15:53:00.002Z

Aah. Spring. I'm loving the weather these few days. No strong winds. Just the sun and slight breezes. The tree outside my window is starting to bloom now. Looks quite pretty. Pretty because the branches are still bare of leaves. Pretty because small buds are starting to grow and slowly growing. But I bet once it's late spring it'll be beautiful. Hopefully I'll still be around to see it.

Okay. So I'm blogging because I haven't decided if I should go to Tesco today or tomorrow morning. I know it's a lame sort of dilemma but maybe I'm having this dilemma because I'm a lame sort of person. I don't really care to contemplate that thought though. Anywho. I think most likely I'll go to Tesco tomorrow since I have to wake up bloody early to do homework even though it's a Saturday but I still have to prepare for Spanish Oral on Thursday. My time slots at 6.50pm. It's kinda late but that's what I get for having Y as the first alphabet of my surname. Oh well. At least I won't have to go into panic mode to early on Thursday. It's decided then. I'll go to Tesco tomorrow.

Hold up a minute. Why the hell am I writing this here? Ugh. Brain drifting off into space. Oooh. That reminds me I have yoghurt in the fridge. *pauses* This is weird. How'd I get reminded of yoghurt when I was thinking about space? Argh! I'm so not getting enough sleep. I can't even have a proper train of thought without it jumping around from one train track to another.

Alright. This is me. Shutting up and going to play Chocolatier 3.

why do i bother?

2009-03-15T20:58:00.000Z

Really. Why do I bother? When will I ever learn?

Urgh!

hell yeah baby

2009-03-14T15:09:00.002Z

Man Utd-Liverpool 1-4

'nuff said.

*grins*

fearless

2009-03-13T19:56:00.004Z

Fearless by Taylor Swift

There's something 'bout the way
The street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement, you walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
Yeah

We're driving down the road, I wonder if you know
I'm trying so hard, not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool, run your hands through your hair
Absent-mindedly, making me want you

And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm, in my best dress
Fearless

So baby drive slow, 'til we run outta road
In this one horse town, I wanna stay right here
In this passenger seat, you put your eyes on me
In this moment now, capture it remember it

'Cos I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm, in my best dress
Fearless

Well you stood there with me in the doorway
My hands shake, I'm not usually this way
But you pull me in and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss
It's flawless
It's really something
It's fearless

'Cos I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm, in my best dress
Fearless

'Cos I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm, in my best dress
Fearless

The lyrics are here because I'm too lazy to write, because I love the lyrics and because I just love this song.

spring

2009-03-10T13:20:00.002Z

It's March already. Can't believe it. Amazing how fast time flies. It's about a month to Easter. Then it's exams. *sighs* At least I only have to sit for one paper. Then I'll be free.

Final stats exam/test tomorrow. 16 chapters to revise. Help?

Spanish Oral on the 26th. Spanish written test on 2nd April. I'm so not prepared.

Assignments due. This is so starting to stress me out and I can't get stressed out or I won't be able to study properly. Bugger this. At least, after the stats test I'll be able to breathe a little.

Okay. Must revise for stats. Ciao.

little zombie

2009-02-26T22:48:00.002Z

I am so tired. It's been days since Warwick games and I'm still so tired. My muscles have stopped aching so much though. Maybe I'm not getting enough sleep. Maybe I'm not eating properly. *sighs* I don't know. Oh well.

Ugh, I should really stop reading manga online and finish my logbook activity. I haven't even finished the first question and I have to hand it in next week. Then there's that exam in 2 weeks that I have to study for. So many things to do. Why am I procrastinating so much?

Accounts mock test this coming Tuesday. Need to revise.

Micro assignment results posted online. I'm quite happy with my grade considering the bunch of crap I wrote. Wonder what I'll get for the Macro assignment.

Imperial M'sian Night tomorrow. Staying with N after that.

Sunday I have to force myself to get my priorities right. Plenty of work piling up and it's not getting any less.

At least there's no Spanish homework this week.

wardrobe makeover

2009-02-04T19:57:00.002Z

I'm re-vamping my wardrobe. *laughs* Not much I can do though. I can't spend so much money. I'd go broke. And the 'rents would probably kill me. But of course, little bits here and there will work enough. *beams*

I've got so much stuff to do. I've just remembered that there's going to be a logbook assignment again. And I've got that Marketing test coming up next week. It's bad that I'm procrastinating so much too.

Alright. I've so got to get back to my work. I need to stop procrastinating and getting distracted. Such bad habits I have. *sighs* Taa all.

News from the Kampungdom!

2009-01-18T16:45:00.002Z

Oh yes. I'm all hyper today. No idea why. Maybe it's because I'll be passing up my Macro assignment tomorrow. Maybe it's because I've been watching the Twilight trailer too much.

Now, people. Hail the queen of Kampungdom. Yes. I'm the queen. So start giving me gifts or something. *laughs like the professor who makes daimons in sailormoon s*

Okay. I think I've gone a bit nuts now. But whatever! Hmm. I should print out my work. Nah! I can do that later.

Seems like I have short attention span today. Can't seem to concentrate very long on doing something. Even this. *laughs* Must be the chocolate.

Classes tomorrow. Marketing case study feedback tomorrow. Hopefully. I wonder what I got. I hope it's not bad. At least I know I passed because he said no one in our seminar group failed.

Anywho. I think I should get back to Bella. Before somebody kills me for taking so long. Ciao!

Pretty much obsessed

2009-01-18T01:17:00.004Z

Oh my god!!! I really really want to watch Twilight. I've been watching the trailer over and over and over again. It's turning into an obsession. Gah! Edwardddd! Loveeeee! *drools*

Okay. Other than that new obsession... life's pretty much back to normal with classes and stuff. Except for Bella and Nick getting included into my life now, but I haven't been able to spend time with them thanks to assignments. Ugh. Group mates. Don't ask. And my becoming nocturnal. I'm getting less sleep everyday. Especially during weekends. Something is seriously wrong with me.

I should do my work. But as usual. I'm procrastinating like mad. *sighs* Oh well. Must go now. Can't really think of anything to say.

i'm scared.

Goodbye freedom..

2009-01-11T19:58:00.002Z

So. Here I go. Typing up my last post before the holiday ends. I only have 4 hours left before it's a brand new day. Then it'll be 9 and a half hours from then till class begins.

Darn neighbours. Why are they making noise in the corridor? Grr. Shuddup already.

Ho hum. Finding cheap place to live is not easy. *sighs* Of all the places in the world, I just HAD to choose London to study. This is just great. I wonder if this uni helps.

Ugh. Whatever. I can't think straight. Sleep sounds really good now. So g'night!

Avery, dahling...

2009-01-06T02:53:00.003Z

Oh joy! I've finally done it! So proud of me! *pats self on the back* Wheee! Now, Nick Peters is finally on his way.

But unfortunately for me, that joy is short lived. *sighs* Assignments, how you put my life in misery. Yet, I have to enjoy doing you? Apparently, we're supposed to 'live the present moment'. How very confusing and weird. Anywho, my logbook is getting some headway. So that's a relieve. Hopefully, if I can stop myself from getting distracted so easily, I can finish it soon and start planning the marketing assignment. That's highly doubtful though, since I always get distracted easily. *sighs*

That's alright. I'll try my best to not get distracted. Yes. That's what I'll do. I only have about 5 days left before classes begin again. I'll be so busy then.

So, off to continue my assignments. Possibly no sleep for the night.

Bellatrix Hunter Caines. How I love that name. I'm such a genius.

Lazy me...

2009-01-02T20:58:00.002Z

when you wish upon a star

makes no difference who you are

anything your heart desires

will come to you

Imagine. I've been so lazy these past few days. It's crazy. All I do is sit in front of Nikei and watch Sailormoon and movies. *sighs* I'm even lazy to finish up my assignments. I'm so bad.

Oh. I really want to learn how to use CSS. Anyone care to recommend tutorial sites? Teeheee! I've tried looking at some. They just confuse me even more. Why do people say it's easy? It's bloody confusing!

if your heart is in your dream

no request is too extreme

when you wish upon a star

as dreamers do

Right. Tomorrow, I'm going to go shop for.... drum roll, please.... SOCKS! *laughs* Yeah. Socks. Fun, right? Well, at least it'll help get the lazy bug out of me. I hope. Unless I suddenly decide not to go out again. See what I mean? I'm just so lazyyy and it's so not fair that I have to start classes soon. 3 weeks of holiday isn't enough. Bloody university. Oh, wait. I'm not suppose to complain so much anymore.

Anywho. Back to Sailormoon for me! *wink*

like a bolt out of the blue

fate steps in and sees you through

when you wish upon a star

your dream comes true

On with the show!

2008-12-31T19:58:00.002Z

3...2...1... Bang!

Okay. So no bang. Just me. Alone in my room. Celebrating the new year with Jesse-Bear, Nikei, my iPod, Sailormoon anime and maybe a cup of juice or green tea or milk and chocolate. Yes. I have a sad life. NOT! It's actually nice. Okay, not really that nice. It's just quiet. But it's fine with me because I'm too lazy to go down to Central and I think B is in Bristol. Oh, well! I'll just call people then.

So what if I'm being a recluse. I'm just not really in the mood to hang with people. Today I didn't take a singe step out of my room. *sighs* I've been in this room for more more than 24 hours now.

Oh right. Resolutions for 2009. Hmm. Let's see.

-Get a proper life. *laughs* As in not be so quiet and timid. I know I've made this resolution dozens of times before but I think I can do it next year.

-Not procrastinate so much. I think that's my biggest baddest bad habit. *shakes head*

-Study harder? *laughs* I suppose I have to put it in. It's always on the resolution list anyways.

-Exercise? In this cold weather, highly doubtful. But no harm in trying right?

-More 'me' time. Okay. So I have plenty of those but I like having 'me' time. It's fun. I contemplate and just use the internet.

-Complain less. Bet M will probably be happier when she reads this. *laughs*

-End my ~~annoying~~ writer's block.

-Not give up on something I've started. This one's especially for Nick A. Peters.

That's all I can think of right now. My list is usually much longer than this but I guess these are the more important stuff. *smiles* Right! Back to watching Sailormoon anime!

Happy New Year! 2009's going to be a blast!

Rejoice!

2008-12-17T23:16:00.002Z

This is freaking awesome! I finally finished my Micro assignment today. All I have to do is recheck it, print it out and hand it in and I wash my hands off that assignment! Good gracious, I'm so happy!

That's not the only reason I'm so happy. I think I made a wonderful decision today in going out to Central to Winter Wonderland. I had a great time. Sat on the rides, had nice food. I enjoyed it. Even though I spent so much money in one day. I needed it I think. Lately I've just been in Hendon, specifically my room, doing assignments or just watching Charmed and YouTube. Today was seriously a great stress reliever.

I have this very good feeling. That kind of happy, bubbly feeling inside. And not even knowing that I have a Spanish test tomorrow is making it go away. *laughs* I don't know why. Maybe because Christmas is coming. I don't know. *grins* Somehow not even the things that usually get me down are making that feeling disappear. I think it's a good sign. Who knows? It must be a good omen if I'm feeling like this. I haven't even quite some time now.

Anywho. I have to go get some rest. I haven't been getting proper sleep lately thanks to the Micro assignment. Bet that's gonna happen when I start on my Logbook and Macro assignment. So might as well start getting more sleep while I still can. So. G'night, amigos! Muchas gracias. Merry Christmas! *beams*

Bugger...

2008-12-14T19:43:00.002Z

Oh darn. I have to edit my micro assignment. I was really hoping it was going to be alright. Oh well. Wonder how long this is going to take me. At least it's not a lot to revise.

This weekend was splendid. I did nothing the whole Saturday but watch videos on YouTube. Awesome day. *laughs* Of course, I was being a lazy bum. And today, I was on Neopets. Well, I had to kill time while waiting for feedback on my assignment. And now, I have to edit my assignment before I can print it all out. It's close to 8pm already too. I have to sleep soon or I won't be able to get up tomorrow for class. There's not going to be Stats lecture. It's going to be online. So I can do that maybe on Wednesday or something. Or whenever I'm not changing my assignment.

Alright then. I have to go edit as much as I can. Then sleep. Christmas break is coming! I can't wait! *beams*

Presentation... EEK!

2008-12-11T14:09:00.002Z

This is an emergency post. I have to write something or I'll probably freak out so bad I'd forget everything I remember.

Oh, man. I'm so scared I'm practically shivering. Or maybe that's because I'm cold. I don't know. Whatever. I'm still scared. Shoot! What if I blank? What if I can't understand what he asks? Oh man! I can't stop panicking! Help me! Oh man! I'm so scared!

I still can't really remember all I want to say too! What if whatever I say is totally wrong? What if it's grammatically wrong? What if the gender thingy is wrong? Oh man!

Okay. Must breathe. I have about an hour left before I have to go check if I have class at 3.30pm. I can do this. Leave the Micro assignment for tonight when I'm not so panicked. I can send it to the tutor tomorrow.

Oh, man! I'm scared! Bugger that!

Bring out the band

2008-12-06T16:01:00.003Z

a life goes by

romantic dreams must die

so i bid mine goodbye and never knew...

I'm so sleepy and possibly hungry as well. I managed to finish thinking up what I'm going to try to say for the Spanish oral presentation. So that's something done today. I also cleaned up my room and washed my clothes too! Such a productive day. And I still have loads of work to do. There's still the mock Spanish exam I need to do. But I think I can do that later on. Micro assignment is more important right now.

...so close was waiting, waiting here with you

and now forever i know
all that i want is to hold you

so close...

Sunsets are so pretty. I get to see them everyday too! Beautiful colours mixing in the sky. Looks wonderful. That's the only reason why I love the view from my window. I've yet to catch sunrise. Bet that's going to be pretty too. *beams*

how could i face the faceless days

if i should lose you now?
we're so close
to reaching that famous happy end

and almost believing this one's not pretend...

I should get back to doing my work now. It's already 4.30pm. I need to sleep early tonight so that I can actually get more work done tomorrow and squeeze in a Tesco trip too. *laughs* And maybe even watch the sun rise if I wake up early enough. *winks* So adios for now. I'll catch you all on the other side of the rainbow! *beams*

...let's go on dreaming though we know we are

so close...
so close...

and still so far

Time to move on...

2008-12-05T23:08:00.006Z

right here, right now...

i'm looking at you and my heart loves the view cause you mean everything...

So I think it's really time for me to make changes in my life again. I mean I said I would earlier on, to improve myself and everything. But somehow I don't know if it's working much. It is, in little bits and pieces. But now that I think about it, I'm still holding on to somethings from the past and I think it's possible that it's keeping me from doing what I need to do to really change. It's high time I moved on and let go of the past. It's not like I can go back and change it or anything. It's not high school anymore. I'm here, in London, somewhere I've always dreamt of. So it's best that I live it now. After all, no better time than the present, right?

...right here, i promise you somehow

that tomorrow can wait...

Anywho. I have to stop procrastinating already. I mean my Micro assignment is due in 2 weeks minus one day and I've only written about plus or minus 300 words? And I haven't even reached the actual work part yet. It's so bad. Not to mention I have to finish off my Stats logbooks. So tomorrow, I'm going to prepare for my Spanish presentation and probably the written/listening tests and also do the Micro assignment. Going to force myself to do those 3 things this weekend. Have to do it. If I want a less-stress or stress-free Christmas break. Oh, what I put myself through for myself. Yeah. That sounds weird. *laughs*

Alright then. I should be off to sleep. Plenty of things to do in the morrow. So buenas noches, adios amigos y hasta luego!

...for some other day to be

but right now there's you and me...

Count the days

2008-12-03T13:55:00.002Z

the second star to the right shines with a light that's rare...

Oh darn it all. I only have 16 days left to finish my Micro assignment and start on my Macro one. Then there's the Spanish test and oral and the Stats logbook. Okay. Must breathe. Relax. I can finish it all. Sure I can.

It's getting colder everyday now. There was ice on the pavement today. Wonder if it'll snow this year.

I should get back to preparing for Spanish presentation and probably finish up my Stats seminar questions for next week.

Alright then. See ya later peeps. I have nothing else to write here anyways. Teeheee! *beams*

...and if it's Neverland you need, it's light will lead you there

Wish upon a star

2008-11-30T01:57:00.003Z

the only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star...

Happy birthday, Dougie! *beams* He's 21 and I didn't get to go to a McFly concert this year. Oh well. I guess there's always next year. *sighs*

So, I have stuff from home! Yay for me! And one assignment is nearly complete! Wheee! So it's just the group assignment and we only finished it off so we can ask the tutor if it's alright or not. If it isn't then it's back to the writing block for us. Hopefully it'll be okay. I really don't want to have to rewrite it all in less than 2 weeks. Not to mention there's also the Micro assignment to write along with it. That would be ultra stressful. And also since there's the Spanish exam and presentation sometime then too. Oh, boy. That's going to be one hell of a week.

It's 2am now. I should be sleeping. And I will go once I finish this post. I have work piled up for me to do tomorrow after all and I have to get it all done before Monday. So I can't really sleep late and it's rather late already. Oops. *laughs*

Okie dokie. I'll ask mom tomorrow about the stuff and do my work. And voila. All done! Easier said than done though. Wish me luck! *beams*

our song is the way he laughs, the first date "man, i didn't kiss him and i should have..."

Mineeee!

2008-11-27T17:55:00.003Z

what the hell is your problem?

Why is it that everything precious to me, everything that makes me who I am, everything I believe in, is the damn bloody same as you? It's mine! I've never said anything about it to anyone, but it's been part of me far longer than (I believe) you. So why is it that when I finally ignore that you "like" it as well, I turn around and I find you "like" something else as well?

URGH! I hate sharing! Especially with people that really annoy/irritate me or people that I just don't like because they're twit-headed buggers. Grrr. Can't you just get your own freaking life? Find a personality. Go soul-searching. I don't care! Just not whatever it is that I like/have/want/love.

For gracious' sakes, please!

Maybe I should just let it all go. After all, I've always loved it/them. They are part of who I am. So screw you and your wannabe ass. This is my life and I'm making sure no one's going to make it any worse. Especially not when it's just gotten good. Thank all the higher powers for that.

you and your wannabe ass ain't gonna faze me, bitch

Green green green

2008-11-27T12:02:00.002Z

please stop entering my dreams... it's distracting and upsetting...

Green. Seems like it's another colour added to my favourites list. *sigh* Winter's coming. It's getting colder by the day. Wonder if it'll snow...

I ~~hate~~ dislike Econs! I'm telling you, it's out to get me. Even the assignment, which is very much like A Levels, is hard for me to do. Aarggh! Why do I have to suck at Econs so much?

RIght. I'm going to start on the next Stats Logbook Activity first. Just so I can take my mind of Econs for the time being. *sighs* I really really hope I'll get some sort of inspiration soon for the Micro assignment. Or I'll be sooo dead.

they say that good things take time, but really great things happen in a blink of an eye...

Flower arrangements

2008-11-25T20:30:00.004Z

Darn it all! Assignments are huge A-class biatches. Grr. They are annoying the hell out of me. The minute I finish one, another one comes. Not to mention there's already a pile of work waiting for me. I need to get it all done before Christmas break starts too. Which is in 2 weeks. Don't forget that Spanish presentation and exam coming up. *sigh* What did I tell you? Assignments are killer bitches.

Speaking of annoying, a certain person is starting to get on my nerves a bit. No offence to them or anything. It's just that, seriously, take a chill pill. Breathe. It's just been like 24 hours and you're expecting a reply? Hell-oo? The bloody system here doesn't work like that. And you assume you know this place better than I do just because you've studied here for a year longer than me. Mmhmm. Sure. You need to relax a bit. And maybe focus on your other work and probably let me worry about that bit of problem. Geez, lady.

Anywho. I so need to start on all of my assignments, including the one that's due to be given on Friday, which I know how to start on already since it's in the lab notes book. People, don't get me wrong here. I'm not hardworking or anything. I just want a stress-free vacation. That's all. Even if it means stressing myself out before that. Then at least I can say I deserve that break. Which, to say the least, would be the very first time that I can actually say that.

So off to open and stare at the blank Word document page then. Toddleloo! *beams*

Wham!

2008-11-23T20:19:00.003Z

do you believe in magic?

Ho hum, don't wanna be a bum. Stats test was easy peasy japaneasy. It was MCQ and I've learnt most of it in A Levels. Not to mention I only had to do 15 questions. Hopefully I aced it. If not I'd probably smack myself. Results will be out on December 8th after 1pm and I feel a little bit nervous. Just a bit. *beams*

Anyways, I've been sleeping late again. *sighs* I look like a panda. Grr. I really need to break that habit and get a new one. I think maybe a habit of forcing myself to do work. *thinks* Yeah, that one should be good.

Okie dokie. I should get back to doing homework. *sighs* Spanish exam and presentation coming up in 3 weeks. I don't know if I'll be able to do it. Hopefully by then I'll be more prepared. Which means I should start studying already.

So now I leave to finish homework and get sleep.

ever ever after, maybe it's just one wish away

Pink.

2008-11-19T23:45:00.002Z

we call the spirits to help undo and send him off to Timbuktu

Have I ever mentioned that I really do not like bright colours? No? Well. Now I'm mentioning it. Even though I own a few clothes that are bright coloured. Which totally makes me feel so unable to blend when I wear it. Other than my pajamas of course I always feel like it's a mistake for me to wear that hoodie. But I like it cause it's a hoodie and it keeps me warm. *sighs* Dilemma. *makes ugly face*

So I have a test this Friday. Statistics test. Grrr. So not happy about that. I should sleep soon. I need to wake up early tomorrow so I can finish my Logbook and start on my Econs Micro assignment. Thank the powers above for helping in making them push back the Macro assignment deadline. At least I'll have more time to do stuff and everything won't be so cramped together. Well hopefully. I just realized I have another Logbook to do during Christmas break. So add that with the Macro assignment and we have 2 assignments to do during Christmas. Yay, me. Cue flag waving. Doesn't matter. I'm going to try to finish it all early. Meaning I have to stop procrastinating on doing the Micro assignment so I can have more time for the Macro assignment.

Hmmm. There's something I'm supposed to do. Oh yes. Sleep. *winks*

i'm rejecting your deflection

Always and forever

2008-11-15T16:49:00.002Z

What do you do when you miss people terribly? Is there a point in crying? What if you've already cried your eyes out? Then what do you do?

Happy birthday, Emily! It's probably past your birthday in Malaysia already. But it's ok. *beams*

Love you, baby cousin!

To whatever higher power above...

Please help me let go and move on. This can't keep going on. It's tiring.

Ugh. It's going to be Monday soon again. Yes I know it's still Saturday but don't you just know that at the back of your mind the fact that Monday is coming again is nagging at you? If you don't means you're weird. So there. Anyways, I've finally started continuing my notes for Marketing Chapter 4. Took me long enough to get to it. Amazingly enough I finished my Spanish work yesterday. It's strange, right? Me doing work finish extra early instead of last minute. If you don't think it's strange go read some other blog.

Well. I have no idea what I want to write anymore. My brain is not really registering much today. Saturday mood, what do you expect? I haven't even had a proper meal today too. Unless you count 4 pieces of bread with chocolate spread on it proper for lunch.

Hmm. I think that's all this time. Back to Marketing notes for me.

Ferrari? McLaren?

2008-11-13T00:35:00.002Z

Assignments. *sighs* I'm slacking so badly this week. I have no mood to do anything. I'm struggling to finish everything. I haven't started on my Econs assignment, I haven't studied for Stats and I have a test next week, I haven't done my Stats logbook. And then there's Spanish. Ugh. I'm slacking already and it's only been 2 months, close to 3 months! Good grief! What's wrong with me?

This weekend I have to go Central as well. And I have to go shopping for stuff. *sighs* I have so many things to do but so little time. Yes. I know. I'm wasting those precious minutes by writing this. But what do you want me to do? I have no bloody mood to do anything. I'm so tired. I feel very stressed. I don't feel happy at all. It annoys the hell out of me but I don't know what to do about it.

I seriously need to get my priorities right.

I should go. Before I put in another Charmed CD into Nikei and watch another 4 episodes. I need sleep.

you use to always be there... now who do i talk to? tell me please... because i have no idea anymore.

why does this keep happening to me?

Promise...

2008-11-11T02:36:00.002Z

Promises aren't meant to be broken right? So what happens if they are? Stop making empty promises. If you can't keep it don't make it.

hello there, the angel from my nightmare...

It's close to 3am now. I'm still awake. We threw a birthday party for N and A. Hope they had a great time even though the party was a bust. *sigh*

I think about this party and I wonder. How will my 18th birthday be like? Doubt it's going to be happening although I've imagined it to be some awesome day. Most of them are going back for Christmas and leaving the day before. Doesn't matter though. As long as I have a good day, I'll be happy. *beams* We'll just have to see on that day.

Hmm. I don't know what else to write. Just that I can't wait for my birthday and Christmas to come. But one thing's for sure I think. I'm giving up on IT for now. I think I've been holding on for too long and I think it's never coming now. So whatever. I guess it'll come when the time is right.

Teardrops on my guitar

2008-11-07T09:47:00.003Z

You don't know what you've got until it's gone...

It's morning again. I slept knowing something was wrong. I wake up and find out what it is. That just plain sucks. I wish I could just let you know. But it's hard and I don't know how to say it. It's stoopid I know but maybe it's not that stupid after all. I know that things happen. But I never really expected this. Well, maybe I did. Just tried to make myself believe it wouldn't.

he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,

the only one that's got enough of me to break my heart...

For once this week, there's sun shining in through my window in the morning. It's something different from all the cloudy darkness. I miss home. I miss my room. I miss the food. I miss the tv. I miss my bed. I miss people. But I can't keep dwelling on that. I'm here now and I've got to concentrate on that. And haven't I always dreamt of living here? *sighs* I guess sometimes you miss things when you're going through stuff. But I can get through this and I will. So there. For now, I have assignments to do.

MummyZa, please come online soon. We need to chat. Okay? *beams*

Te amo!

2008-11-06T19:07:00.002Z

Me gustas. Really now? Do I? *laughs* I'm not exactly sure to whom I'm saying that to but it's just there. For the fun of it being there. Since I learnt it today.

Tomorrow is Friday. I don't know why I said that. But whatever. Reading week is nearly over. I haven't started on any of my assignments and I haven't bought the things that I need. *sighs* I need to manage my time better and I really need to learn to stop procrastinating.

I wish my writer's block would go away. I mean, seriously, who has writer's block for 2 years? The reason I joined Felicity was to help me with that. But even writing the application was hard. My sister was telling me to stop writing it like an Econs essay. That is seriously bad. Ugh. I miss writing. I really need to get over my writer's block. Just don't know how. I'll figure it out. Hopefully sometime soon. I'm running out of things to write here and I refuse to write about my day. It's so typical and I just don't like it.

I'm thinking...... still thinking..... People.. Do not laugh. This is a serious matter. Only I'm allowed to laugh.

Ah drat this. I'll be back. For now, I'm on vacation from writing. So there.

Phewwww!

2008-11-06T00:12:00.002Z

Guess who's the new President of the United States of America? Barack Obama! I'm so happy! *does happy dance* Yes! Change is HERE! Whoopdeedoo!

I've done my Marketing test. And I managed to get 24/30. 80%. I suppose that's good. Right? It should be good when it's counted for my overall right? Hopefully it is. At least it's an A in normal standards. Weak A. But still an A. I'm happy. It was 4 chapters! *sighs* That's done with for now. I've still assignments to do. Not to mention Spanish tomorrow.

It's been so hectic this week. Struggling to finish studying/reading the 4 chapters of marketing and doing the quizzes, then the test, going for netball practice, shopping for groceries and necessities, getting assignments done. Half of that still isn't done. Tomorrow and Friday's going to be quite busy. I'll probably be rushing around. *sighs* That's going to teach me to NOT procrastinate anymore. For real this time.

I should be doing my Spanish work right now. But I'm still feeling rather jittery from doing the test. That seriously scared me. So I'm sort of trying to calm down now. Hmm. My room is also rather messy. Packing for the 2 nights in Central London and Nottingham Games. I know I should sleep soon too if I want to wake up early tomorrow. It's already past midnight now. But I'll do Spanish first before sleeping.

Well. That's all. For now. Obama-Biden! *beams*

Ughhhh!

2008-11-03T14:12:00.002Z

I have a test this week and I can't get into the bloody site to do the freaking quizzes so I won't fail my test. And if I can't get into that site to do quizzes, how am I going to do the test? This is annoying. Seriously. *smacks forehead*

Ugh! Only thing that's keeping me happy is the fact that Nicky is coming soon. Okay. Not so soon. But soon I hope. Minor delays. Not much of a problem.

C'mon internet. Let me into OasisPlus! Argh! It's taking too long to respond! Maybe I'll just try it later. There's a possibility that a lot of people are using it and that's causing a jam in the system. But that's only a theory. I'll just have to try later tonight. Bugger that.

Whatever. I can continue finishing my notes for Marketing then. And possibly start on my assignments. Work load is piling! *sighs* I can finish this. Soon. I know I can.

Taa for now then! Must motivate myself into doing this.

And history repeats itself again

2008-11-02T02:47:00.002Z

I hate me sometimes. How can I do this again? Why am I doing this again? I said I wouldn't. But here I go. Doing it again. I'm the world's biggest idiot. I'm telling you this now. Seriously. I frustrate myself so badly but I still don't do a bloody single thing about it. Can you believe that? *sighs*

I seriously need help. I don't know what's wrong with me. I miss them. A lot. Freaking a lot.

Ugh. At least this coming week is reading week. I'm gonna have to stay put and study my a** off. Well. Do everything I have to do before history really repeats itself. I don't want it to happen anymore. I can't let it happen again. And I won't. I promised myself I won't. And I'm going to keep that promise. Because I've got to start somewhere.

I just need to manage my time better. And stop sleeping late so much. It's seriously bad for me. Oh. It's raining more often these days. And it really sucks. *sighs* Oh well. Winter's coming anyways.

I should sleep now. It's like 3am and I have to wake up early so I can study Marketing finish and start on my assignments. And I need to go to Tesco tomorrow. I'll just take a nap or something in the afternoon if I'm tired. So adios amigos! *yawns* Buenas noches! Yes. I'll come up with more Spanish words later on. Those just fit the context right now! *smiles*

Snow, snow in October...

2008-10-29T00:44:00.002Z

It was snowing just now! Had plenty of fun outside in the snow! Even though it was freezing cold. Love it so much! Wheeeee! *grins* I should probably have something hot to drink now. The room heater is on so my room is nice and toasty. *beams*

It's stopped snowing already outside. But it was really awesome while it lasted. Had a snowball fight as well. With some people from the first floor. We were taking snow off the cars in the carpark since the ground didn't have snow. It melted when it landed. But the grass was all covered in ice. So pretty!

I seriously felt like a little kid given chocolate. *laughs* I know I've seen snow before but I still love it! Love winter even though it's always so cold.

Alright. I should probably start doing something productive now and get some sleep. Morning class tomorrow... But the snow really made my day extra special. Thank you! *beams*

Love Story

2008-10-28T00:33:00.003Z

I'm in loveeeee!

With Taylor Swift's songs. *grins* Shocked you all there didn't I? I just feel like being silly and random today. And I've been listening to her songs since yesterday. I'm getting her album! So I can repeat it over and over again on my playlist. *beams*

I should be doing my econs work. But why am I not doing it? Because I don't have the mood. I don't know why. Just feel like ditching all my work actually. *sighs* Just need some time I guess to re-motivate myself again into studying.

Suddenly I don't have the mood to write here anymore today. Maybe another day. I guess I'm going through some weird moodless night. I'll just force myself to do econs now then. Buenas noches, amigos!

Country Pop

2008-10-26T18:36:00.004Z

Good grief... I've not gotten anywhere with my marketing. This time I was distracted by YouTube. Taylor Swift is one heck of a singer. Love her! And her songs are amazing! And I like the dresses she wears in all her music videos. They're so pretty!

I want her albums!

Nick isn't coming so soon anymore. There's been a delay. *sighs* But at least he's still coming! *smiles*

Oh shoot. I really have to read my textbook. It's already close to 7pm. Eek!

Black Fenders

2008-10-26T01:27:00.003Z

Daylight saving is over. It's back to 8 hours difference.

My printer is finally on it's way. Well, I think it is. Haven't heard anything from the shop yet. But I suppose it is. The order was being processed the last time I checked. Like they say, 3rd times the charm. *laughs* So it's 1am GMT right now. I've been reading marketing the whole day. Can you believe it takes me 3 weeks to finish one chapter when I could have finished it in a few days? *sigh* I really shouldn't procrastinate anymore. I said I wouldn't anymore. But here I am... still doing it. Now I have to finish 2 more chapters before Monday. Which is in 24 hours. I think I can finish it. As long as I sit in this chair and read it. And not let my mind wander off somewhere. And not get distracted by something. Like posting here. *grins*

I'm actually waiting for my banana to turn yellow. I'm kinda doing an experiment. For no apparent reason. Hmm. I need to go to Tesco tomorrow. Don't know how I'm going to be able to run there, buy my stuff and come back and still finish 2 chapters(it's a lot actually) by 1am tomorrow. Well. I've got to try. Better not wake up late. Or I'll have less time. Meaning I have to sleep soon.

Alright. It's getting darker sooner these days. Not to mention colder. Today was so darn windy. And it's not like the wind back home. They're like freaking strong winds. You could be blown away.

Ugh. I seriously need to cut down on my spending. I've already spent like 500 over pounds this month. And the month isn't even over yet! This is bad! But I guess it's a good thing I did my monthly finances thing now. Or else I would have just kept on spending. At least now I know I have to try to save where I can save. Even though the exchange rate has dropped. But there's recession coming. Saving is good. Who knows? I think I should start saving to buy a waterproof jacket, boots and whatever else I need. Like christmas presents. No, I will not send it to anyone anywhere. If you want something. Come here and get it. But that is if you have a present. *laughs*

Do you think it'll snow this year? I want it to.

I really have to stop now. Marketing is yelling at me already.

I miss my guitar so bad. Wish I had it with me. I'd be able to learn how to play Lovebug. Maybe. Or one of McFly's new songs.

Adios. =)

Flashes from the past

2008-10-25T03:19:00.003+01:00

Why does it keep coming back? It's not supposed to anymore. You aren't supposed to plague my mind. You were long gone from it. Why are you back? Ugh. Whatever.

McFly has a song in their new album called Smile. It's freaking nice. Here are the lyrics...

You don't have to have money

to make it in this world
You don't have to be skinny baby
if you wanna be my girl
Oh, you just gotta be happy
but sometimes that's hard
Just remember to smile, smile, smile
That's a good enough start

So if you ain't good looking
don't you let it get you down
And if your love life ain't cooking baby
there'll be more fish around
Oh, you just gotta stay happy
and put away that frown
Just remember to smile, smile, smile
And turn the world around

Just remember to smile, smile, smile
Smile, smile, smile,
Smile, smile, smile
Come on and show us your teeth
And what you've got underneath

Everyone's got troubles
and that's the way the story goes
You don't neet to use hubble baby
to see what's underneath your nose
Oh, cos' if you're feeling happy
that's the place to let it show
Just remember to smile, smile, smile
So everybody knows

And it will make things so much better
when you're feeling low

Just remember to smile, smile, smile
Smile, smile, smile
Smile, smile, smile
Come on and show us your teeth
And what you've got underneath

Smile, smile, smile
Smile, smile, smile
Smile, smile, smile
Come on and show us your teeth
And what you've got underneath

Just remember to smile, smile, smile
(Come on you've gotta)Smile, smile, smile
Smile, smile, smile
Come on and show us your teeth
And what you've got underneath

Smile, smile, smile(you've got to smile)
Smile, smile, smile(just remember to smile)
Smile, smile, smile

And turn the world around

La ciudad y el pueblo

2008-10-23T21:34:00.002+01:00

Today was uneventful. Sort of. I have no idea actually. Spent most of my morning doing my laundry and just staying in my room. Hmmm. Why am I turning this into a place to tell the whole world what I did? This was so not the purpose.

Moving on. Nick Peters is coming! I'm very very very, absolutely happy about that! I can't wait! *beams* Oh. McFly's concert is on the 27th of November at Wembley. I don't think I'll be going. It's not that I don't want to or that it's too far away or that it'll finish late. It's that I have no one to go with. And I don't want to ask S, B and N. I doubt they're interested in McFly. And no, they are not characters from Gossip Girl. Coincidentally enough their initials are those 3 initials. It's funny isn't it? I just realized it myself. *laughs* Hmmm. I think I've said something about McFly's concert already. But whatever. It's been on my mind recently. So yeah.

I know what I haven't mention. Carphone Warehouse didn't let me get a contract phone either because I'm not 18 yet. I suppose this is a new rule? Maybe? I have no idea. I'll just wait until my birthday then. Even though it's going to be a long wait. I don't care what you say. It's MY birthday. I'll decide whether it's near or far off. SO THERE. Maybe by then there'll be cooler phones. Teehee! If not, I might just wait until January for the cooler phones to come out. *beams*

Hmm. I think there's something wrong with me today. That you have to blame on me sleeping at 5am. Oh!

¡Cumpleaños feliz, Nissa! If you're reading this, it means Happy birthday in Spanish. I know in Malaysia it's totally past time. But it isn't here, yet. *grins*

Anywho. I should get on with my stuff. I have to boil water soon or I won't have any water to drink tonight. Eep! And I should probably clean up my room as well. It's darn messy right now. *sigh*

Signing off..... =)

Siberian Huskies and Dalmatians

2008-10-21T19:12:00.003+01:00

I'm starting to run out of things to say. Or not. Maybe I just don't have anything to say. So I went down to the O2 shop on Saturday to try to get my contract phone. Apparently I have to be 18 to get it. But that's not the biggest frustration. This is. The phone I want- Nokia 7610 Supernova is finally out and it's got the best tariffs online but I can't get it because I'm NOT 18.

It's so darn ~~frustrating~~ annoying!

Tomorrow or maybe another day, I'm going to try Carphone Warehouse and see if I can get the black Nokia 6500 Classic. It's quite a nice phone. Slim. Able to fit in my pocket. =)

Okies. I know this is a very short post but I have to run off to finish my stats work. I don't want to sleep late tonight because class is at 9.30am tomorrow and I want to try to get my floor mats washed early in the morning. Say around 7-ish. I can't wait till Thursday because I'll have tonnes off clothes then. So taa for now! Wish me luck with the phone thing! *winks*

One in a million

2008-10-15T22:29:00.009+01:00

I was bored. So I decided to post some song lyrics. This is by Hannah Montana. It's called One in a Million. The lyrics are really nice.

How did I get here
I turned around and there you were
Didn't think twice or rationalize
Cause somehow I knew
That there was more that just chemistry
I mean I knew you were kind of into me
But I figured it's too good to be true

I said pinch me, where's the catch this time
Can't find a single cloud in the sky
Help me before I get use to this guy

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in a blink of an eye
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can't believe it
Oooh Ohhhh
You're one in a million

All this time I was lookin' for love
Try'n to make things work that wasn't good enough
Til' I thought I'm through
Said I'm done
Then stumbled into the arms of the one

You're making me laugh about the silliest stuff
Say that I'm your diamond in the rough
When I'm mad at you, you come with your velvet touch
Can't believe that I'm so lucky
I have never felt so happy
Every time I see that sparkle in your eyes

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in a blink of an eye
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can't believe it
Oooh Ohhhh
You're one in a million

All this time I was lookin' for love
Try'n to make things work that wasn't good enough
Til' I thought I'm through
Said I'm done
Then stumbled into the arms of the one

I said pinch me, where's the catch this time
Can't find a single cloud in the sky
Help me before I get used to this guy

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in a blink of an eye
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can't believe it
Oooh Ohhhh
Yeah yeah

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in a blink of an eye
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can't believe it
Whoa
You're one in a million
Yeah
You're one in a million
Yeah
You're one in a million

There you go. Don't you think the lyrics are sweet? *smiles* Yes. I'm extremely bored that I'm becoming a silly headed person and posting lyrics on my blog. But the song is still awesome. Don't argue with me on that. I ain't gonna bother listening to you if you do. *sticks tongue out* Alright. Me thinks I should go find something to do.

Faith, Trust and Pixie Dust

2008-10-15T11:27:00.003+01:00

Ever wish that you could fly away to some place beautiful? Like Neverland perhaps-where you'll never grow up. I wish I could go there. *laughs* That's why the title is faith, trust and pixie dust. That's just what you need to fly. *grins*

So McFly has a gig in Wembley on the 27th of November. It's possible to get tickets. But I doubt anyone would want to go with me. *sob* It's okay though. There's still next year and the year after that for me to go to one of their gigs. I will go. Just maybe not this year. There's also a football match that I want to go to. Arsenal vs Liverpool. On my birthday. It'd be the total best birthday ever if I could go. But tickets are hard to get and it'd most likely be expensive. *sigh* Doesn't really matter. It's just wishful thinking though. I can go watch some other Liverpool match some other day. And I will watch a match while I'm here. As long as I get to see Gerrard, Torres and Carragher play live.

Adorable, aren't they? *grins*

So there's this roleplaying forum called Felicity. I can't believe I'm actually joining it. My character: Nicholas Avery Peters. ~~Wonder where I got that name from.~~ Played by Freddie Highmore. Love. *smiles*

Alright. I need to go shopping. It's close to 12 already. I should leave if I want to be back early to nap. Taa for now!

Who are you?

2008-10-12T00:01:00.002+01:00

Who are you now? I feel like I know you but yet somehow I feel that you've changed into someone totally different. Should I be happy? I don't know. I guess I am really naive to think that you wouldn't change. I should have known better. You did change once before. I suppose this came rather unexpectedly. Why don't I know you any better than I did years ago? You're becoming more of a stranger. And yet you still call me 'Bie' or 'Adik'. Is it just a force of habit? I am so stupid. But maybe I am just blind. Maybe I just didn't want to see it as that. But now, it's like the truth is being shoved at my face again.

Should I just move on and let it be? Or should I try to get back those once upon a times? I really don't know. Can you just show me a sign or something that you actually are who you once were at least? Just a hint. Maybe then I'll know what I'm supposed to do.

*sigh* I promised myself. That I wouldn't be like this anymore. Guess sometimes old habits die hard. Maybe sometimes I just need a little encouragement. But how do I get that? I have no idea.

I really shouldn't think about this. It's giving me extra stress. I really should just push it to the back of my mind and forget about it. Just like how I did with the other unwanted memories. After all, when there're no memories, there's no pain.

Time for me to take a deep breath and let it out. I have to get my mind off of this.

Dreams.... do they mean something?

2008-10-10T13:54:00.002+01:00

So. I had a dream the other day. I don't really know what it means. But it got me thinking. To the times back before A-Levels. *sigh* I can't seem to just forget that dream. It still is so vivid in my mind. Why do I have to go through this all over again? I thought it was over for good. I really thought it was. Is it a sign? What does it mean? I really should get up when my alarm rings. Or I might get these kind of dreams again.

Talking about dreams, I've just realized that I've always wanted to come to London. I mean on holiday or something. I don't know, I've always had this image of London in my mind since young. Now that I'm here, I don't really know if I like it or not. I mean, it is nice being here. I love Oxford Street for some odd reason. But somehow, I feel sort of disconnected from the place. Maybe it's because I'll be living here for 9 months. I have no idea.

Anywho. I have lab (for stats. It's weird. I know.) in like half an hour. I have to go look for the class. Don't think that will take me too long but I need to check my post box again for letters from the bank or something. *sighs* It's getting colder. Well. Sort of. The weather is kinda strange. *laughs* Some days it's cold, some days it's warm. But what the heck.

Missing you all... =D

I'm so..... ARGH!

2008-10-06T00:58:00.002+01:00

I'm really such an idiot sometimes. Why do I even do it? *sighs* I don't get it. Really. And I should get it. But I don't. Am I making any sense here? Yeah, didn't think so.

Seriously, I don't even know why I bother. I shouldn't bother anymore. I know what will happen. I can so predict the outcome. But I still do it. What part of my brain makes me do it? Gah! I annoy the hell out of my own self sometimes. Yes. I know it's a sign of insanity but do I look like I care?

Alright. Putting that insignificant ranting aside, today was the open house thingy. Was there from about 11 plus, close to 12 to around 4. No, I did not go for 2nd or 3rd rounds... Okay, okay. So I did. But only for the cookies AND only ONCE! It was raining when we went there so we were wet. No umbrella, just a hood. It was freezing COLD! Fine, I'm exaggerating. It wasn't freezing. But it was still really really cold. It didn't really stop raining until around 3? I think. Or maybe 4. *laughs* But when we went back, it wasn't raining. Just windy.

Moving on. I went to Nurul's accommodation today. Her room is big! And the table is big! But it's not ensuite. Just a sink. But she has a mini fridge in her room. Anywho, I reached 'home' around 5.30pm. It was drizzling again at that time. I tell you, it's getting colder everyday.

So. It's 1am. I should sleep. Soon. Nicholas Avery Peters! Sorry. Random. *grins* Love him! *sigh*

Lovebug...

2008-10-02T13:57:00.012+01:00

I love the Jonas Brothers! Their songs are A-M-A-Z-I-N-G! Seriously. There's this new song called Lovebug. It's kinda emo but it's really nice.

Now I'm speechless, over the edge and just breathless,
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again.
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment,
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again.

So lectures have started. I'm really loving it here. Well. Sort of. There's even work to do already which I haven't started on. I know it's bad but I just can't seem to get to it. I should start though since this Sunday I'm going down to Central London.

There's netball today too. The first training. I wonder how it's going to be like. But I think I'm going to enjoy it. I'll be playing for Queen Mary at the Nottingham games. Sabby asked me to play for them and since Middlesex does not have a Malaysian Society, I doubt that we'll be playing there. I just hope that the QM training won't clash with anything.

*sighs* So far everything is alright. I'm trying to get over my huge-a** 2 years writer's block. It's a huge struggle and finally I managed one line last night. At around 1 am. Maybe the English air will be good for my writing. *laughs*

Hmm. I seriously need to make friends with people in their first year. If not, I'd have no one to hang with next year. I'd be a loner. Again. *sigh* I'd better start on my work now. No time like the present right?

So this is me... trying to be a good student.

I miss them all!

2008-09-20T20:44:00.002+01:00

Isn't it strange? You don't miss the people you love until you're alone somewhere in the world. Maybe it is true. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. Good gracious. I've been trying not to cry since forever. So I did cry on the first day. I was lonely, sad, scared and confused. What else could I do but cry?

I have to make this post short. It's close to 9pm here already and I'm kinda sleepy. Yeah. Early for a normal late sleeper like me. But oh well. Time to change my sleeping habits I guess. *laughs*

Anywho. I miss them. Zaim Ko, Pam, Nunu, Fiza, Ikky, Hayat, Shareen, Aina, Maas, Su Yen, Jen, Tony, Wei Ern, Annis, Michelle. I feel a little bad about missing them now and not contacting them earlier. I'm so happy that I'm meeting Zhong on Monday. Familiar face! It's a relief actually, knowing that I still can meet old friends.

Making new friends is so hard. I'm trying. Really hard. But sometimes my stupid timidness/shyness problem kicks in and I clam up and shut up. *sighs* I'm still working on that though. It's part of the process to change myself to the better me. This includes the ability to cook which will take a while to gain. I speak as if I'm playing some roleplaying game. *grins*

Things right now are quite ok. But it's only been, what, 3 days? We'll see how things go. Tomorrow is the Brighton trip. Hopefully I'll enjoy myself. I need to sleep soon too. Feel rather exhausted. So this is me... signing off.

Like woah!

2008-09-14T15:34:00.002+01:00

It's the 14th of September. 3 more days and I'm flying to London. People keep asking if I'm excited and all I do is smile at them. The truth? Excitement or any other emotion for that matter hasn't exactly set in yet. But I do feel a bit nervous about going to uni. But that's it for now.

I just can't imagine what it'd be like over there. I'm nervous about making new friends. I've never been good at that sort of thing. I'm trying to be more outgoing and less timid. And to top it all off, I have to cook myself. *sighs*

I'm just hoping I'll be able to make good friends there and actually enjoy it. I know I'll be able to do it. Just hope it'll all work out in my favour.

Anywho. There's still some stuff left to do at home. Still need to buy some last minute stuff also. And I'm still debating on whether to bring Jesse-bear or not. Somehow I doubt I have any space left to stuff him into. *sighs* We'll just have to wait and see.

Oh, darn. I still have to clear out my table and my wardrobe. Hopefully I can do it all in the few days I have left. One thing's for sure, I've got to make sure I don't forget anything. *winks*

Dude!

2008-08-25T14:03:00.002+01:00

Urgh! The rushing around is making my head spin like craaaazy! But there's still like tons of stuff to do! Can you believe that? *sighs*

Will be leaving for KL tomorrow. Again.

Anywho. I don't have much time to write this so it's gonna be one hell of a short blog. Seriously.

Man! I wish I can see them before I leave. I miss 'em all.

Clearing

2008-08-16T08:54:00.002+01:00

Results are out. Okay. They were out ages ago but whatever. *grins* It was not good at all. Huge disappointment but what can I do now? It was my fault for not studying harder.

So I went for an Australia Fair thing. ANU said no. Didn't really bother with the other universities because I've only got a 7 and most good universities asks for 8. For business courses that is. In the end, I received help from this lady at that counseling place for clearing. Strange because it was an Aussie Fair and I'm doing clearing for UK. But you could say I was lucky. I found a new course that sparked my interest. Business Studies with Modern Language.

Apparently, I didn't have to go through UCAS so I applied through the university's regional office and guess what? I got in! So now, it's all a rush here and rush there to sort out everything. Yesterday, I had to rush all over town. Even managed to send in the form for my passport. Then Monday, will have to go for medical check-up I guess. Or so Mom says. *sighs*

I have to do spring cleaning as well. Or should I say autumn cleaning. *laughs* But only on my stuff. Mom says I have to sort out what clothes I want or don't want. And my apparently, my table drawers are in need or clearing out as well. Darn. I hate clearing out my stuff. It's so tedious. But I suppose I only have myself to blame since I like collecting all sorts of odd stuff.
Guess I have to do it soon and stop procrastinating.

Anywho. I'm off to finish the last episode of the last season of Teen Titans. *winks*